I Haven't Found It

But I'm plodding along anyway. I feel so far removed from where I was at my fittest points over the last five or so years. In the  months since I last posted, I've had times where I'm better about getting out and running and times when I'm worse. I haven't been able to be consistent about it and I also haven't been able to pinpoint EXACTLY why. I've speculated and I think touched on a lot of the reasons, but identifying and understanding them hasn't seemed to make fixing them any easier.